Hope requests a post, and as I am her roommate, and must please her as much as possible, I am trying to acquiesce. As I start this journey of the writing process, I am unsure of what to write... not that it matters much, since only Hope will be reading this :) Hi Hope!
Christmas break, or any break for that matter, is always an interesting time. I come "home" to a place where there is literally no place for me to unpack my bag, and barely room for me to sleep, let alone move around. I try to spend time with my family, but end of getting cabin fever and suffocating in this house, and going to the mall or a friends house instead. This makes me fell guilty, especially with younger siblings needing love and attention, but I am unsure of what else to do!
I love spending time with my extended family in particular however. This group of people is just amazing, and even though we do not see each other much, we are able to pick up where we left off and just have fun together. How grateful I need to be for the wisdom and love of these people!
Then there is the issue of prioritizing. Because of the lack of structure and lack of freedom of time at home, I usually end up putting off devotions, and any forms of spending time with my Heavenly Father - which I soon notice in my daily walk. There is no place at home to go and be quiet, alone with God. My mind wanders, and I cannot focus. These are excuses, but truths just the same.
I have decided many things over break however. Many of these have to do with the future. I will likely be writing a checklist for the New Year - goals (long and short term), and wishes.
I long to return to the place that truly feels like home for me - school. Thinking of it that way, I am not sure how I am going to be able to leave it, but I know that God has exciting things in store for me, probably in Denver, Colorado :) I look forward to the long talks, meetings and planning that will occur over the next few months as we all decide our futures (for the short-term at least). I also anticipate preparing for an amazing trip with amazing women to Kolkata in May.
I should probably go to bed, I am attempting to practice being a college student and actually staying up past 11 again :) More to come at some point in my life :)
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Thursday, August 2, 2007
What I've Learned Cont'd....
Continuing on in yesterdays list of things I've learned, on a light note :)
5) Not to take myself very seriously - If you can't laugh at yourself and your shortcomings, then you'll end up thinking more and more about yourself... sort of ironic. Therefore, when you do something stupid, don't try to play it off, just laugh it up :) It makes for a much happier life.
6) I do not want to be a receptionist - Not stimulating enough.....I need interaction, and I need to be using my brain more, lol. I can't handle just sitting here all day.....although, it does allow me to post in blogs and stalk people on facebook better. Teaching may be challenging, but at least its not incredibly boring :)
7) How to change a tire - no better way to learn than through doing by necessity! I have now successfully done it, and purchased a rubber mallet, to assist me in doing so again, should the need arise.
8) Growing in confidence - I think the biggest thing that helped me in this was taking the bus to work almost every day. I know this sounds very strange, but its true. I am forced to rely on others for transportation, which I hate, but at the same time, I felt like I had to exhude confidence in every way. Maybe because I feel like more of a professional now, I dress up every day (not because of school) and I run this place in part (answering the phones, directing people where to go, etc...). Its fun :) I have a ways to go in this area though I think.
9) I like eating healthy - This is not new news, but I decided this summer to put a good effort into it, and spend a lot more money eating healthy. I think it was worth it, I feel better about myself even if there is no visible change :)
10) People love venting to me - I am noticing a trend, and it scares me. I am one of the worst people at giving advice, but so many people (my dad, my aunt, my grandparents, my friends, etc...) continue to vent their deepest frustrations to me. I don't mind listening at all, but I just don't know what to say in return. Perhaps nothing.
Hmm.. that is all for now, maybe more later, if I think of any :)
5) Not to take myself very seriously - If you can't laugh at yourself and your shortcomings, then you'll end up thinking more and more about yourself... sort of ironic. Therefore, when you do something stupid, don't try to play it off, just laugh it up :) It makes for a much happier life.
6) I do not want to be a receptionist - Not stimulating enough.....I need interaction, and I need to be using my brain more, lol. I can't handle just sitting here all day.....although, it does allow me to post in blogs and stalk people on facebook better. Teaching may be challenging, but at least its not incredibly boring :)
7) How to change a tire - no better way to learn than through doing by necessity! I have now successfully done it, and purchased a rubber mallet, to assist me in doing so again, should the need arise.
8) Growing in confidence - I think the biggest thing that helped me in this was taking the bus to work almost every day. I know this sounds very strange, but its true. I am forced to rely on others for transportation, which I hate, but at the same time, I felt like I had to exhude confidence in every way. Maybe because I feel like more of a professional now, I dress up every day (not because of school) and I run this place in part (answering the phones, directing people where to go, etc...). Its fun :) I have a ways to go in this area though I think.
9) I like eating healthy - This is not new news, but I decided this summer to put a good effort into it, and spend a lot more money eating healthy. I think it was worth it, I feel better about myself even if there is no visible change :)
10) People love venting to me - I am noticing a trend, and it scares me. I am one of the worst people at giving advice, but so many people (my dad, my aunt, my grandparents, my friends, etc...) continue to vent their deepest frustrations to me. I don't mind listening at all, but I just don't know what to say in return. Perhaps nothing.
Hmm.. that is all for now, maybe more later, if I think of any :)
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
Hope requests a post...
In the style of my xanga posts..... I will attempt to think about and digest various things I have learned this summer. Bear with me, as I have a sense of randominity, and no flow of thoughts (at least none that makes sense).
1) God is in everything I do - He is with me all the time, loving me every minute of every day, and nothing I can do change His love for me. He is always stretching His hand out to me, asking me to trust Him more, to give up more of myself, to love others as He loves them.
2) I am learning how to let go - As a result of His endless pursuit of me, I have been forced to reevaluate my sense of control. How amazing it is when you truly are able to give things and people up to God! This has been, and will continue to be, a hard lesson for me, but one worth every minute of it! When we finally are able to rest in God's arms completely, He will be inside whatever problem we may be facing, and whatever happens, we can rest knowing that His will is being done, and (thankfully) not our own!
3) I have no idea what I am going to do with my life - I guess this isn't something completely new, but it is something I'm learning to be wholeheartedly excited about. God does know what is going to happen in my life, and through trusting Him, I know that whatever He has in store for me will be amazing, if I am willing to follow Him and abandon my grips on this world!
4) There is so much about God that I do not know/understand - This was made so completely evident to me in Uganda. How amazing it was to interact with these people, so similar and yet so different from ourselves. To watch this other part of Christ's body worshipping Him and working in His vineyard, was just absolutely awe-inspiring. The joy radiating from these people with so little impressed upon me... how could I, who has been blessed with so much, EVER fail to give all of the glory to God! I need to learn how to better use the gifts and talents God has given me to serve His kingdom better, and in time, God will reveal to me (and only when I need to see the next step) what I am supposed to be doing in this life! In the mean time, I will strive to love people, and show them Christ's love.
More to come...
1) God is in everything I do - He is with me all the time, loving me every minute of every day, and nothing I can do change His love for me. He is always stretching His hand out to me, asking me to trust Him more, to give up more of myself, to love others as He loves them.
2) I am learning how to let go - As a result of His endless pursuit of me, I have been forced to reevaluate my sense of control. How amazing it is when you truly are able to give things and people up to God! This has been, and will continue to be, a hard lesson for me, but one worth every minute of it! When we finally are able to rest in God's arms completely, He will be inside whatever problem we may be facing, and whatever happens, we can rest knowing that His will is being done, and (thankfully) not our own!
3) I have no idea what I am going to do with my life - I guess this isn't something completely new, but it is something I'm learning to be wholeheartedly excited about. God does know what is going to happen in my life, and through trusting Him, I know that whatever He has in store for me will be amazing, if I am willing to follow Him and abandon my grips on this world!
4) There is so much about God that I do not know/understand - This was made so completely evident to me in Uganda. How amazing it was to interact with these people, so similar and yet so different from ourselves. To watch this other part of Christ's body worshipping Him and working in His vineyard, was just absolutely awe-inspiring. The joy radiating from these people with so little impressed upon me... how could I, who has been blessed with so much, EVER fail to give all of the glory to God! I need to learn how to better use the gifts and talents God has given me to serve His kingdom better, and in time, God will reveal to me (and only when I need to see the next step) what I am supposed to be doing in this life! In the mean time, I will strive to love people, and show them Christ's love.
More to come...
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
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